See U Again

by Alan MacLeod

Released 2016
Released 2016
A direct and personal exploration of the seven stages of grief which (just like that list) ends with hope.
  • 04:14 Story Lyrics
    See U Again

    So this is grieving

    I hate how it feels

    I can’t believe there’s no way

    To cut some kind of deal

    I’m losing hours.  Feeling the blame.

    And I wanna’, spin the world backwards

    ‘till nothing, nothing, is the same

     

    I’m mad as hell at eve-ry thing

    Oh and sometimes, just at you

    I’m numb and done pretending

    That I know what to do

     

    Ohhhh

    I’ll see you again

    Gonna’ see you again

    Don’t know how.  God know when

    I’ll see you again.  And when I see you again

    We will walk the river side 

    and we will talk, my friend

     

    Everything I knew included you

    So many secrets.  So many smiles.

    So I hope it’s no offence to you

    If I hide out for a while

      

    See you again

    God knows how.  God know when

    I’ll see you again.  And when I see you again

    We will walk the river side 

    and we will talk, my friend

     

    I’m gonna’ go to the mountains  

    I’ll head for the sea

    And I will, breathe in every moment 

    Of life that’s still in me

    So that when I do see ya’

    I’ll have something to say

    And maybe you will

    show me the way

    Ohhhh

    I’ll see you again

    Gonna’ see you again

    Don’t know how.  God know when

    I’ll see you again.  And when I see you again

    We will walk the river side 

    and we will talk, my friend

     

    "See U Again" © 2016 Alan MacLeod

Going Going Gone (Plugged)

by Alan MacLeod & William Crowdis

Released 2012
Alan MacLeod/William Crowdis
Released 2012
Alan MacLeod/William Crowdis
A song for those who’ve felt broken inside.
  • 03:26 Story Lyrics
    Going Going Gone (Plugged)
    I've been hunting for free 
    but I've never felt free until now. 
    I run through the trees and the leaves 
    'till I throw myself down. 
    I am laughing 
    until I am crying. 
    Then came something 
    far worse than dying.
    I was going, going. Gone. 
    Broken again 
    all broken again 
    I'm going, going. Gone.  


    But you dear you're special 
    you've never felt broken inside. 
    Your world is a stage 
    where the lights never fade 
    or turn off. 
    It must be amazing 
    to know you'll be all right 
    sure that you'll never 
    never know what it feels like 

    to be going, going. Gone. 
    Broken again 
    all broken again. 
    You're going, going. Gone. 
    Broken again. 
    All broken again inside. 
    Broken. Broken inside. 
    Broken. Broken inside. 


    Time changes everything. 
    Water wears away stone. 
    You can count on one small thing: 
    you're not really alone ... 

    even when you feel you're

    going, going. Gone. 
    Going, going. Gone. 
    When you're going, going. Gone. 
    Broken again, all broken again 
    inside. 

    Going, going. Gone.

Hey Lover

by Alan MacLeod

Released 2014
Released 2014
This unplugged, swaying song celebrates the one essential element that keeps fear and jarring life changes at bay.
  • 03:15 Story Lyrics
    Hey Lover

    I’ve been asleep, since we woke yesterday
    And we started throwing, our good times away
    I could do somethin’, really I should
    But change, comes, hard

    Sometimes, oh, it moves like an ice flow
    Jagged and cold. Cruel and dead slow
    This time it hit, faster than lightning 
    And we’re too scared to open our eyes

    Love! Love! 
    Our love, is a voice in the rain sayin’
    “Lover! Hey Lover! Come on Lover 
    Come on, come on, come on …”

    We tried to talk, using, smoke and mirrors
    Tried using sounds only, dogs could hear
    What if we held close, and whispered our way
    through our next, little while

    Love! Love! 
    Our love, is a voice in the rain sayin’
    “Lover! Hey Lover! Come on Lover”

    Come on Lover
    Let’s write all our fears on rice paper
    Set ‘em on fire in the wind
    And just watch ‘em go like it’s nothing
    ‘Cuz it’s nothin’. Fear, is nothin’.
    Ahh, it’s nothin’ like Love

    Love! Love! 
    Our love, is a voice in the rain sayin’
    “Lover! Hey Lover! Come on Lover 
    Come on, Lover …”

After New York

by Alan MacLeod

Released 2012
Released 2012
"Americana with a heart and a strong pulse." The first single, "HERE and NOW", is the end credit song of the feature film "The Disappeared".
  • 04:31 Story Lyrics
    Find Home

    She slid out of bed, trying not to wake him. 

    His eyes were closed. He wasn't sleeping. 
    He just played along. Then he and the clock 
    listened for the lock and her footsteps fading. 

    And I know what she's feelin' 
    Know what she's thinkin' 
    Know what she's doin' 
    Going off alone. 
    Woh, oh. 
    Trying to find Home. 
    Find Home.

    Grand Central Flag

     

    The subway doors opened 
    and he moved forward. 
    Up the stairs 
    to the trains 
    and all that light. 

    Under the great big flag 
    he made up his mind 
    left his stuff behind 
    and started walking. 

    And I know what 
    he's feelin' 
    Know what he's thinkin' 
    Know what he's doin' 
    Going off alone. 
    Woh, oh. 
    Trying to find Home. 
    Find Home. 

    I work these sidewalks. 
    Singing the Old Songs. 
    Watching the wounded 
    follow their heartbeats 
    as they pass on by. 

    I know what you're feelin' 
    Know what you're thinkin' 
    Know what you're doin' 
    Going off. 

    Hey, I know what you're feelin' 
    Know what you're thinkin' 
    Know what you're doin' 
    Going off alone. 
    Woh, oh. 
    Trying to find Home. 
    Find Home. 

    Home. 

  • 03:50 Story Lyrics
    Baby Don't Go There

    She said: Baby don't go there 

    Baby don't go there 
    Baby don't go where your heart could break 
    Apart. 
    Like sail boats 
    tossed on shore in a storm. 

    I kept my eyes on the highway 
    As she stared out her window 
    Sayin': 
    "Ya' open up your heart. 
    That's where the knife goes. 

    "Yeah", I said: 
    "Who'd want that." 
    Then we drove along 
    in silence for hours. 
    The rockies 
    turned to prairie 
    Black and gold and open 
    and I thought of 
    everything I shouldn't say. 

     

    fingers against a Prairie sky

    Baby don't go there 

    Baby don't go there 
    Baby don't go where your heart could break 
    Baby don't go there 
    Baby don't go there

    Baby don't go where your heart could 


    Break down as hard 
    as the rain slammin' itself against the blacktop. 
    But there was a Joy in her eyes 
    when lightning sliced the sky 
    so I pulled over and we leaned against the car 

    So then I'm babbling like a fool. 
    Her head is bowed towards her shoes 
    And I keep going 
    'cuz she keeps standing still. 
    We are soaked right to the skin. 
    She grabs my arms and pulls me in 
    as yet another 18 wheeler 
    passes us and fades ... 

    Fades long and slow ... 
    Like a warm night slides into morning. 

    I should tell you 'bout the time 
    I gave a gal a ride 
    to Coney Island. 

  • 03:32 Story Lyrics
    Love Is a Hard Thing to Hide

    I don’t talk a lot 

    ‘bout what have, or haven’t got 
    But I’m seeing and thinking and dreaming 
    Every day 

    The price of compromise 
    Shows right here in our eyes 
    As we watch, what we want, what we need 
    Get worn away 
    Oh I wish I 
    Had the nerve to say

    alan's a blur in times square

    That I’m burning for ya’ 
    Yearning for ya’ 
    And love, is a hard thing to hide 
    I’m burning for ya’ 
    Yearning for ya’ 
    And love, is a hard thing to hide 
    But I’m learning. I am learning. 

    When that freight train 
    whistle blows 
    I just, turn my head and go 
    I step up, and breathe in 
    as she rolls 
    On out of sight 

    And when you look at me and smile 
    I feel we’re both such liars 
    Swaying, then saying, ahh the timing 
    just ain’t right 
    Oh I wish I could 
    Hold you every night 

    I’m burning for ya’ 
    Yearning for ya’ 
    And love, is a hard thing to hide 
    I’m burning for ya’ 
    Yearning for ya’ 
    And love, is a hard thing to hide 
    But I’m learning. 
    I am learning from you baby. 
    I am learning.

  • 02:52 Story Lyrics
    Lay My Heart Down

     

    I'm sooo done 
    prancing around 
    The bloom is off the roses uptown 
    Can I lay my head down here? 


    All those 
    bright lights went dim 
    My friends are gone 
    my marker’s called in 
    Can I lay my heart down here 

    Can I lay my heart down 
    Can I lay my heart down 
    Can I lay my heart down here? 

     

    thin ice breaking apart

     


    I’ve been caught up 
    in my own lies 
    But I’ve 
    finally opened my tired eyes
    Can I lay my heart down here? 


    I have 
    lost every fight 
    I'm stumblin’ around 
    in the cold cruel night 
    Can I lay my heart down here? 

    Can I lay my heart down 
    Can I lay my heart down 
    Can I lay my heart down here? 

    All my life I’ve never fit in 
    All my life I never quite win 
    All my life, I’ve been wanting, needing 
    Some one to say: 


    “Ahh Honey, I know. 
    I know just how ya’ feel 
    Ahh Honey come on 
    come on home with me. 

    Lay your heart down here”.

  • 03:24 Story Lyrics
    Going Going Gone (Unplugged)

    I've been hunting for free 
    but I've never felt free until now. 
    I run through the trees and the leaves 
    'till I throw myself down. 
    I am laughing 
    until I am crying. 
    Then came something 
    far worse than dying.
    I was going, going. Gone. 
    Broken again 
    all broken again 
    I'm going, going. Gone.  


    But you dear you're special 
    you've never felt broken inside. 
    Your world is a stage 
    where the lights never fade 
    or turn off. 
    It must be amazing 
    to know you'll be all right 
    sure that you'll never 
    never know what it feels like 

    to be going, going. Gone. 
    Broken again 
    all broken again. 
    You're going, going. Gone. 
    Broken again. 
    All broken again inside. 
    Broken. Broken inside. 
    Broken. Broken inside. 
    surreal mountain in rear view mirror


    Time changes everything. 
    Water wears away stone. 
    You can count on one small thing: 
    you're not really alone ... 

    even when you feel you're going, going. Gone. 
    Going, going. Gone. 
    When you're going, going. Gone. 
    Broken again, all broken again 
    inside. 

    Going, going. Gone.

  • 03:20 Story Lyrics
    On Our Street

    On our street in the morning 
    the sun hits St. John’s steeple 
    and the new copper shimmers to the cross. 
    It covers building roof tops 
    slides across their faces 
    and reaches out, to find me on our bench.

    On our street 
    there’s always something changing. 
    Light and shadows shifting. 
    Lovers going by. 
    On our street 
    there’s always something changing. 
    All the cars and trucks 
    and busy folks or lovers 
    going by. 

     

    last sliver of light on building seen through cp trees


    On our street in the evening 
    the winds that came for supper 
    have all wandered off 
    towards the moon. 
    They coax her out of hiding. 
    lift her 
    far above these tree tops 
    so the poets 
    can blacken their thin pages. 

    On our street 
    there’s always something changing. 
    Light and shadows shifting. 
    Lovers going by. 
    On our street 
    there’s always something changing. 
    All the cars and trucks 
    and busy folks or lovers 
    going by. 

    I don’t know ... 
    but our tiny old apartment 
    got far too large once you were gone 
    so I just stay outside. 
    And I know ... 
    I’ve got nothin’ done on anything 
    I wait and walk and wonder 
    what the Doctors 
    should have tried ... 

    On our street after midnight 
    I close the door so quietly 
    and climb the stairs just like we used to do. 
    I get your clothes and pile them 
    on your side of our big bed 
    and smile as I tell you ‘bout my day. 

    On our street 
    Dear, there’s always something changing. 
    Light and shadow shifting. Lovers going by. 
    On our street 
    Dear, there’s always something changing. 
    All the cars and trucks and busy folks 
    and lovers, 
    lovers just like us, 
    there's always lovers going by.

  • 02:54 Story Lyrics
    Head Up High

     

    Near the flickering streetlight 
    there's a half-open window 
    with a girl inside.

    She's soooo tired. 
    Doing what can't be done 
    (seems like) for all her life.

    She's soooo tired. 
    Doing what can't be done 
    (seems like) for all her life. 

    Hold your head up high 
    Hold your head up high 
    Hold your head up high 
    And try.

     


    He's up at five every morning 
    just like when he was working 
    Lord, he misses those days 

    Takes an orange from the fridge
    to his kitchenette table 
    and peels the skin away. 

    mo ma apt reflections

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    Hold your head up high 

    Hold your head up high 
    Hold your head up high 
    And try. 

    We feel every bump in the road.
    We're lugging our heavy loads. 
    We're runnin' and jumpin' 
    and hoping 
    somehow we'll fly ... 

    Hold your head up high 
    Hold your head up high 
    Hold your head up high 
    And try. 

  • 04:06 Story Lyrics
    Don't Like Being Alone

    Maybe Alabama? 
    He could never place her accent 
    And she would never say. 
    Now and then he'd catch her crying 
    She’d wipe her tears 
    then say nothin’ all day 


    She don’t like being alone 
    She don’t like being alone 
    and so, every waking minute 
    had to have something in it 
    something to do or something new 
    or a loud, radio 
    ‘cuz she don’t like being alone 
    she don’t like being alone

    falling rocks on old guitar case

    So all that summer 
    They went everywhere, did anything 
    Lovers could do or dream 
    Her rules were pretty simple: 
    "Let the past stay in the past" 
    And "smile when you want to scream" 

    CHORUS 

    He saw the ambulance pull away 
    and drive off slow 
    The cops said: 
    “Boy, don’t you go in there 
    It’s better you don’t know” 
    But he just had to see 
    He had to see 

    And now 
    He don’t like being alone 
    He don’t like being alone 
    So now, every waking minute 
    He's gotta’ have something in it 
    something to do or something new 
    or a loud radio 
    ‘cuz he don’t like being alone 

    He don’t like being alone 
    He don't like being alone 

    He just don’t like it.

  • 03:36 Story Lyrics
    Waiting for Us

    I’ve been waking up humming 
    Traveling songs. 
    While you're sleeping I'm-a 
    Watching for the dawns. 
    I'm hearing wet tires on that sparkling road. 


    It’s the wounded who heal 
    And the weak who get strong. 
    I can't figure 
    Where our rights went wrong. 
    We're working these fields 
    Growing nothing but old. 

    So come on baby 
    Let’s go baby 
    There’s a whole world waiting 
    There’s a whole world waiting 
    There’s a whole world waiting. 
    For us 
    Waiting for us. 

    IMG_5668 Yellowhead road sign


    There’s the Church 
    There’s the steeple and ya' 
    Look inside - there’ all the people. 
    And I can see us, cruising by. 
    On up past the school. Main Street. 
    Waving at that dog with the mean streak. 
    Crossing the river 
    Where we learned to cry. 

    So come on baby 
    Let’s go baby 
    There’s a whole world waiting 
    There’s a whole world waiting 
    There’s a whole world waiting. 
    For us 
    Waiting for us. 

    That highway’s glowing 
    like a shiny new dime 
    That sky is calling 
    so now’s the time! 

    And then I hear your voice 
    sayin’ “Come back to bed". 
    You hold up the sheets 
    sayin’: “Lay down your head". 
    “’cuz there’s a whole world waiting 
    a whole world wainting 
    a whole world 
    waiting for us”. 

  • 03:29 Story Lyrics
    Here and Now

    Here and now 
    While we are tired 
    Here and now 
    With all our might 
    Here and now 
    We vow to one and all 
    we shall not forget tonight. 
    We shall not forget tonight.

    Here and now 
    As we are leaving 
    Here and now 
    We’re not alone 
    Here and now 
    As stars are fading fast 
    We will find our way home 
    We will find our way back home 


    photo of an Albertan mountain lake @ sunsetSometimes I don’t believe in nuthin' 

    Alone and far away from grace 

    Then I see wind moving over water 
    Or I 
    Feel rain on my face 
    ... 

    So here and now 
    Let’s say forever 
    Here and now 
    Let us not stray 
    Here and now 
    let’s face, the rising sun 
    and send our fears away 
    We shall send our fears away 

    We shall send our fears away 
    Here and now.

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